I don't Know

But I do know..... I've always considered people using blogs as "diaries" to be horribly misguided.... I think I'll change my opinion for this single post..

Currently Godspeed You Black Emperor is playing through winamp... If you don't know what the hell winamp is.... Don't use a PC ever again..

Now back to my topic. I don't know. Things have popped up lately that are unforeseen.... I've lost control of my mind, my thoughts are stricken with paranoia and love/lust?

How can someone be so amazing they make you want to curl up and stay in that moment forever....
If you haven't seen it, go see Run Fatboy Run. It's an awesome romantic comedy with a british humor twist.........

Back to what I was thinking...

I'm deciding to go look at some Airforce Jobs.. I've been bent on Navy in the past few months.. I realized today, after giving my best friend away to his new bride.... that maybe Navy is too far from home. I miss him terribly and it burns.. Even though he is staying in the same damn country.. What will it be like to leave for 2 years straight on a boat across seas?? devastating

Congratulations for the marriage. :) If you read this, I love you man just as much as my own brother.

Ahh back to the topic again... I sounds weird but ... Can you fall in love with someone over the shortest amount of time ever thought conceivable? Maybe not that short... But in the matter of two weeks? The spectral game that is my mind has rocked me hardcore this weekend... Saying good bye to my best friend... and saying good bye to one of my other best friends for so long... It hurts.. It really really hurts...

Optimism isn't one of my best traits at the moment.. In fact I'm infatuated with pessimism. Not for my self..... Just for everyone else.


Relax... Tomorrow will be a brighter day than yesterday.